This Is She

 It's so easy to tell our friends yea girl you should leave him alone. But why is it not so easy for us to do the same exact thing? If I think about the situation I am now and I think what if this was my Bestfriend? What would I say to her? How could she get out of this? It's almost disgusting to have so much advice for others but can't take your own advice and apply it to your real life. That's me. Disgusted right now. How dare I leave one relationship whom a man went crazy and irate to be with another man who snaps at the drop of a dime and says the most vulgar words a man could say to a woman. Many don't even know I let him treat me this way. Many people aren't even aware the levels there are to abuse. This isn't physical abuse. It's verbal and mental soon to be emotional abuse. It creates a stir in your psyche and causes confusement because you cannot understand how in the world you have allowed this to happen. How can you tell me you love me and the...

You are not the pain you gave to me You are far more than that Your mother did not show you the appropriate way to love a woman And that is why you so casually love and was able to hurt me I tried to be there for you, bared fruit for you and still you shattered my souls My heart undone, my heart that used to be whole is broken in half because of you A letter to my ex Do you even deserve that much? Lying and beating even misleading how do you deserve anything more than a look of hatred on my face A blackened soul that only came to light when I had my son You are the epitome of a great loss of love A failure of happiness The meaning of everything your mother tells you not to do and to stay from Lord I should have stayed away from you But how would I know my worth? How would I know that I am a true Queen A Beautiful Black Queen that will not take anything less that what she deserves A woman that sees her self value and instead of being angry, she is wise. She is wise an...

stimulate my mind guy See inside of me Don't be afraid to let me see the way you see inside of me He touches every part of me, not only physically But spiritually he caresses me, verbally and mentally A new understanding I gain Taking me away from the usual pain Reassurance of the Queen that I am Of the wife that I want to one day become, of the mother that I already am A son that I have to raise A father that he does not have My friend my confidant my king, or are you? Actually who are you? Cuz technically you are not even mine But when I spread my legs and you part my hips you are mine Belonging to me our souls intertwined By God we are married because we have made love An understanding that only we understand You say you don't want it to end and I think I don't want you to pretend Don't let this be like the rest, let this be real Let him be true and remain with me stimulating me senses Guy. Stimulate my mind. Stimulate my spirit. Cum and be one...